Since it’s been a few months since posting here I figure I better do a baby update! I also wrote one on my craft blog ~ me being crafty.

It’s been over a year now since our son died. I went to his grave a few times when we were home earlier this spring. He doesn’t have a headstone yet but we’ll probably get one next fall. My Grandma died this past August and the family will get her headstone next year too so I figure we’ll do it at the same time.

It’s still hard. I suppose it always will be. I have moments where I want to talk about him to my friends here but my husband made the decision that it is our business and he didn’t want to tell others here. I respect that decision of his though I have told one friend. We haven’t talked about it since telling her, but just telling her made me feel better. I know if I wanted to I could tell them and Chris wouldn’t care. So maybe I’m just not ready yet, ready to spend that time explaining and crying and hurting like it is fresh. In due time.

In the meantime my kids are doing great – Alice and Jake are both doing great in their school work and love to play together. Sure they may get tired of their mom sometimes but they are good.

We are done with week one following the Body for Life program!

One big difference with this plan and others I’ve followed in the past – getting used to the eating. What I mean is this – really, we need to get a lot of food during the day. Every plan I’ve ever tried I end up surprised at how much food one needs to consume. I thought this was going to make me lose weight, what’s up with the eating of everything in the kitchen! Of course then we find that we do lose weight on these plans.

The first couple of days I was stuffed. I was not hungry when it came time to eat again, but I did anyway. By Saturday I didn’t feel like I was starving when the few hours passed, but I knew a few hours had passed because I was slightly hungry. Not even hungry, I just knew it was time to eat again!

I did cheat once – I had one piece of chocolate with caramel inside. I wasn’t craving it but I was annoyed that I had to stick to the food plan, so I ate it. Afterward I realized that was not the smartest choice. I didn’t feel good that I ate it – I mean, I wasn’t feeling that “ohhhh chocolate….” feeling that we sometimes get. But doing it once made me realize I’m won’t have a hard time sticking to this.

The workouts were tough. Focusing on one thing each day almost made it harder! My arms were sore the day after focusing on upper body, legs after cardio and then legs still after lower body. But yesterday was a cardio day and I felt really good.

I try to not obsess on the numbers but I feel skinnier. And according to that pesky scale I lost four pounds. How awesome is that!

My friend and I are both ordering the Eating For Life book because it is full of recipes and the Body for Life website recipe search function isn’t that great.

Today is our cheat day! I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast and then pizza for lunch. I’m not even hungry. I mean I figured I’d want to eat junk food and chips and chocolate – and I don’t. Another friend said that was good but man, I really wanted to cheat today!

Tomorrow starts week two. Here’s to a couple more pounds down by this time next week!!